However, now I
have a new debate to consider. In looking over today's judgmental
thoughts, I realize that many of these thoughts are unfortunately what
helps me get through the day. They're defenses against various thoughts,
feelings and states. I judge others and myself I think, in order to
combat more uncomfortable feelings like loneliness, helplessness,
awkwardness,
uncertainty.
Those are feelings/states (?) I'd
like to do away with in this project too, though. Maybe this doesn't
have to be a debate. Perhaps what I'll do is stick to the current
regimen for the week, then evaluate where I am, what I've accomplished,
and where to go next on Tuesday.
So, as
scheduled, tomorrow I'll be trying to rework some of my thoughts into
non-judgmental observations, in order to try and figure out what those
look like. In keeping with what I've learned so far, I'll write down my
reworks in order to keep track while I'm figuring things out. I'll try
to do this after breakfast and after supper, for specific times.
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